Me: today I'm gonna finally get out of bed and be productive
Depression: ha. No you're not. You won't get out of bed because whatever you say or do doesn't matter at all. No one cares about what youre doing and no one cares about you. You'll just lay in bed and do nothing because you're nothing.
me when i go out: "i should've stayed home."
me when i stay home: "i should've gone out."
me when i'm around people: "i want to be alone."
me when i'm alone: "i want to be around people."
me when i'm mean to people: "i need to be nicer."
me when i'm nice to people: "i need to be meaner."
Late night over thinking and self loathing.